Counting down~

Dear baby,

You were measuring 1.1kg at week 27! Great. Not too big and not too small~! LOL. Everything's normal and we are cleared for flying next Monday. (Though Mummy is still feeling a little jittery)
I love how you kicked and moved in my tummy. Those sudden movements never fails to put a smile on my face. :) Just a few more weeks to go and you will be feeling crampy inside and have not much space to move around. Oh ya, I start to feel your hiccups too. So cute! Rhythmic movement at the same spot. Hope you are getting use to that new sensation!
 
Mummy's got flu yesterday and I kept on sneezing and blowing my nose. Hope that didnt affect or disturbed you much. Mummy's feeling better today and will recover before going to Penang. We will have lots of good food over there~! Hope you will enjoy what we will be enjoying.

So so, Dr Wong gave me a list of what to pack when I'm due for labor.. plus, now I have 2 copies of "things to get for newborn". A lot of items are unnecessary... so, i shall just go ahead and get whatever that is needed. :) So excited~!

Mummy's a little fed up with the new laptop. It cant seems to cope with the massive amount of photos I transferred over from the previous lappy. Lags like hell~~ Really testing my patience. However, after I transferred out the photos to external disk, everything works. Just for precaution sake, I will send this new laptop to service and hope they can solve the problem.. before I go ahead and install microsoft office.

Ok, I'm getting a little off topic. We will be heading for lunch soon~~ Til the next visit next year, I love you~!

Getting ready

Hello baby~~~

How are you? I'm sure you are fine. Mummy can feel you everyday, every night.. and sometimes every moment. :) I'm enjoying your every movements.. so is Daddy. :)

Every now and then, I feel that life is so so amazing. You are created just from a single egg and sperm. Still remember the days when Daddy and mummy worked so hard to create the little you. Seems like ages ago, but it's actually just 6 months ago? Hee~~

Mummy and Daddy are getting ready, step by step, to prepare the birth of little you. We had gotten some new clothes from you, new tommee tippee bundle set, new toyogo drawers to contain your stuff etc.. Ok mummy is "stressing" on the "new" word because it seems like there are a lot of hand-me-downs from your cousins. Sorry eh~~ mummy is not being stingy... but old people always say and believe that hand-me-downs are better.. (as the items are "seasoned" and thus more comfortable). Don't you worry, you will definitely have new items when you are out. Like toys! Aren't you excited?

We are going to take the plane on the eve of Christmas~! We will be heading to see your grandparents, as well as your great-granny, just before you are out. It's been a while since Mummy's been back there.. Need to do my part as a daughter-in-law. I hope you will be comfy during the plane ride. Mummy is nervous too. But rest assure, we will be heading to see Dr Wong to get the green light before flying. Of course, we will need her "certificate of assurance" so that those people at the airport let me board the plane. LOL. They won't want to take the risk of any possible unforeseen circumstances.

Ok, time for mummy to pack some of your stuff to the Toyogo drawers that we bought last week. Haha. Mummy was lazy in packing.. but not anymore! Need to start to do a checklist, on what you and I will need as time goes by.

Til then~~ Mummy loves you~! Muacks~!

When u were 24 weeks...

Pororo!

Mummy's been lazy to update. During our last visit, you weighed 740g and it was more than doubled at 20th week! Luckily you are still consider normal, because if u were measuring over 800g, mummy may have to go on diet.

Grandma went with us for that visit. I could feel that she's excited. Doctor went to scan your pee pee just for her to see... And emphasize quite a few times. Lol. You were quite cooperative too, showing your long legs and side profile. :) finally, you were not camera shy!

Our next visit will be 3 weeks later, coz mummy need to scan again just to make sure everything is good for flying. Yes, we will be heading back to Penang to visit your great grandma on the Christmas week. Lets hope that I can find some cheaper items to buy for you from Malaysia.

Love,
mummy.

Holiday - Deepavali

Dear Pororo,

How are you feeling today? Is it the same as me? I hope not. Mum is feeling bored and is missing Daddy so much right now. This is the second week of his biz trip. Right now, he is in Australia.

Daddy came back from Japan last week over the weekend and bought you something. Tadah~~~ Mum's favourite - Stitch's clothes for you~! Awww... so cute right?! (Daddy bought the smallest size available in the store.. but I guess you have to wait for a while before you can wear them. LOL)

Daddy had also bought mummy some Jagabee snacks too. You can taste it when mum's having it. LOL. Yumz~!

Mummy's been feeling your movements more frequently this week (compared to last week). To tell you the truth, mummy was feeling a little worried last week! But I guessed that was because you were having "mood swings" too... you were missing daddy's voice and daddy's touch wasn't it? When daddy was back on weekends, you were so excited and kept moving.. and daddy felt your strong kicks and movement too. :) Another week to go, before you can feel daddy's touch again.

Grandma will be coming down tmr for "transit" for 2 days before flying over to Australia with your aunt for a holiday trip. That will probably be her "last" holiday trip before coming over to Singapore and take care of my little you. :)

Stay happy and healthy my little Pororo.

We love you~!

Detail Scan @ week 20

We went for our detail scan last Monday. We were very excited to see Pororo once again. Just in case he was not in the correct position, we purposely walked the overhead bridge (instead of underpass) after lunch, back to TMC. Never did we know that the little naughty boy decided to act all shy again.

That particular ultrasound room had only one screen. :( Thus, I was not able to see what was going on inside me. Dear managed to see a little, but he could not figure out exactly what the lady was scanning. The only obvious organ he knew was the little heart, pumping blood, with healthy 4 chambers and vessels. :) The lady did everything she could and leaving the face scan last.. coz Pororo was buried deep down inside me, with the back facing out. The best she could do was a side profile scan. So, in order not to waste time, she asked me to go for a walk (about 30 mins) and return for another scan.

I did that.. and the 2nd scan she took some pictures and asked us to wait for the printouts... just as we were waiting and thought that everything was over, the lady came out again and decided to scan again.. to get clearer and better images. Ok.. so I went in for a 3rd scan and Pororo was still in the same cozy corner. (>.<) I could feel that the lady was getting a little bit impatient. Little Pororo just don't budge. So in the last attempt to shift the little one, she asked me to climb up the scan table and go on all fours and do butt shaking for 5 mins and she left the room to us as she knew that butt shaking was a little embarassing. LOL. She came in after that and he was still the same! Frustration in me build up...as I didnt know exactly what's going on. She was frustrated too. A lot of time was wasted on me and my little one. I was tired. Luckily in the end, she managed to scan his nose and lips while I laid sideways.

I headed on to see Dr Wong after getting the detail scan results and she explained to me some of the medical terms used in the report. In general, I am gaining weight and baby is absorbing the nutrients well. Dr Wong commented that Pororo was a little big headed. She will monitor his weight... so that I wont get so tough to push him out at the end of the pregnancy. I need to eat more to gain weight for myself... as well as to monitor my blood pressure as it is getting lower and lower. 93/56. There's nothing that she could do... and hope that by gaining weight, it will naturally bring up my bp. I just hope that my little one dont gain so much then!

Alright, last milestone hit~~ From now onwards, I just need to stay happy and healthy for the little one and await for his arrival. :)

Last but not least, let me show you the side profile pic of little Pororo. :) I thought he was blowing bubbles... but Dr Wong said that the round thing was actually cross section of the umbilical cord. :)

Your nick name

Dear Baby,

Yixin 姐姐 decided to give you a name called "Pororo"! Funny eh~! Daddy and I were laughing hard when she told us about it. Pororo is a cute little penguin! Just in case you are not sure about who he is, this is him.

He's a cartoon character who is apparently quite famous in Korea~~... so in order not to let Yixin 姐姐 disappointed, your internet name will be Pororo. :)

Daddy's not with mummy these few days.. he is on biz trip right now. Heard that his presentation went well and at least he kept his rice bowl. LOL.

Mummy is eating fruits while writing this... mummy is so full that there's a feeling of tummy exploding! But I cannot control myself~! haha. Hope my stomach is not pressing down on you.

Daddy's bday is just next week! Weeeee!! We're going for a night stay at hotel~~ Mummy cannot go anywhere right now and so it's the only chance for us to relax and enjoy the celebrations! It's also our 2nd wedding anniversary~! This year is special as we will be spending it with you. :) Looking forward to it!

Love, Mummy

2 Oct 2012

This post was written down on the 2nd of Oct on a piece of paper, just that I didnt update about it over here. Here it goes:

Dear baby,

As usual, it was really nice to see you yesterday! Dr Wong did a little peep between your legs and we were now 90% sure that you are a little boy. That also explained why the intensive morning sickness as well as forever erupting pimples. :) You were back-facing us all the while and did little somersaults on the ultrasound screen. So cute! I could see that daddy was grinning away with pure happiness. Seeing you move and hearing your loud and stable heartbeat... to know that you are healthy and safe inside me is all we could ask for.

29 Oct will be your detailed scan. Hope you can co-operate with us and show us your face! (you were in the wrong position when we did the OSCAR scan. :) seems like you are always shying away from the camera! LOL.

After our visit, I had informed quite a number of friends and family members on your possible gender. I hope you dont mind! Your grandpa and grandma are definitely happy to hear that you are a little boy.. you know, it cant be avoided.. older generations still prefer a boy. I am happy and relieve that I can "answer" for them. No stress for the subsequent ones!

Right now you are measuring 10.5cm. Look at how much you have grown! Doubled! So looking forward to the next visit. Til then, I'll be waiting to feel your very first movement. :)

Love, Mummy

Waiting and waiting

Hi baby! How are you?

Mummy is trying hard to stay awake in office today. There was a symposium from 10-4pm and mummy was dozing all the time!

1st Oct will be our next visit to see you. Seems so far away~~ By that time, you will be 16 weeks. If you are not shy and cooperate with us during the scan, I think we should be able to see your gender. :) Then Mummy and Daddy will start to keep a lookout on the cutest clothes for you. haha~. Of course, not to forget those hand-me-downs from your cousins. So excited. Cant wait to see how are you inside me and how much you have grown.

Daddy's new ride is awesome~! Though it's not a supercar, it still look as good as new. Daddy's coming home from India on Wednesday morning and I do hope that he can rush back from the airport just in time to send mummy to work. Mummy's getting lazy... need to squeeze bus and "fight" for seats. I definitely need to sit.. but those people around me who doesnt know that I have you, they are always using their weird eyes to see me.. and my hands that are always hovering and covering you up. :) Mummy just looks like... having a fat tummy. haha.

Ok, shall talk to you again.

Love,
Mummy

Good news~!

Dear baby,

It was really fun and exciting watching you moved during the oscar scan last monday! You weren't that cooperative for the first scan, and you were lying comfortably inside me. You even refused to shift to a better position when the nurse disturbed you by gently "poking" mummy with the scan probe. After several attempts, there's no choice but for the nurse to ask mummy to go out for a walk and see Dr Wong first before returning for the 2nd attempt.

After about half an hour, we headed back to see if you were in the correct position... Tadah~~~ Yes! (though you were still a little curled up). However the nurse was still able to measure your nasal bone and the fluid behind your neck and everything was fine! The nurse then went on to take lots of pictures from different angles and we could see your well defined little hands and feet. So cute~! You are so tiny (~5.1cm) but everything is so well-developed. It is so so amazing!

Daddy kept laughing and smiling during the scan. He couldn't contain his excitement and happiness to see the little you. I'm so happy to see his reaction! Seems like all the "tough" times that I had been through were all worth it. It's simply priceless to see daddy's expression and of course, having you inside me.

Mummy got a call from the clinic this morning and they mentioned that the blood test results was normal as well! So indeed, you are a healthy and happy baby to be! Ratio was 1:686. :)

Alright, time to pen off now. Til the next visit to see you~~ Missing you~!

With lotsa love,
Mummy.

Our Sunday.

Mummy has been sooooo tired recently!

 

Nevertheless, we are all ready to meet you this coming Monday =) Oscar test-> to test if you are having any chances of being ‘special’. Of course I’m not worried coz daddy & mummy are young and healthy =p Being a kiasu parent and with technology advancement, all these tests are just routine tests.

 

Mummy’s reaching my first milestone with you. 1^st trimester! Finally! Was waiting anxiously and looking forward to that which means, officially you will be taking in nutrition from me. Mummy will have to eat more healthy food. Also, I hope that morning sickness will go away, so that I can enjoy the food I choose for you. Happy mummy, healthy baby right?

 

Daddy has been very patient and caring towards mummy (and you!). Every day I will tell him that ‘I love you’ and thanks for his concerns. Daddy is also going to buy a car for us! Of course, we will have to count every cent that we will be paying or saving next time. =) daddy is good in financial planning so mummy has all trust in him, 100%!

 

We would also like to say ‘thank you’ to 舅舅for lending his car to us when he is in reservist. Daddy then use the car to fetch mummy to and fro work, as well as going to places when we used to have nice dinner. Like…. Stingray! Lol

 

Mummy will control the intake of seafood that possibly contained mercury. I don’t want to cause problem for my dear little one =) You are simply too precious to me.

 

Ok that’s all for now =) so looking forward to see the ‘grown up’ you… and also… no need to ‘hide’ from others that I have you. I am able to proudly tell my friends and colleagues: ‘I’m pregnant!’

 

Love, Mummy

Wednesday visit

Dear little one,

How are you?! Mummy's on sick leave yesterday and today... because you were so excited yesterday that you made mummy puked big time. LOL. Mummy has gotten weaker, and had lost a little bit of weight due to morning sickness and poor appetite. But don't worry! Mummy is not complaining about you giving me constant discomfort... but somehow, relieved that you are secretly reminding mummy that you are growing fine and well inside me.

So, we saw you yesterday. Daddy was so so nervous and excited while waiting for our turn.. It's really amazing to see you lying quietly in there, growing. When Dr Wong placed her scan probe on my tummy, daddy was already squinting his eyes hard to see your little heartbeat. Strong and steady and loud as well. 177bpm. :) No wonder mummy's heartbeat got a little faster too. Plus, the increase number of episodes of giddiness. Dr Wong also guessed that the rounder part is your head, and the little buds around you will form the hands and your feet. You are so cute and tiny, measuring only 25mm. We were so happy.

No words can describe the feeling of you growing inside me. It's just so amazing. I really appreciate that I have you. Til the next visit in early Sept, we will miss you. :)

P.S. Daddy will be going Penang next week to tell your granny and grandpa about the existing you as a little surprise. Hope that we can see a big smile from them. :)

Love you,
Mummy and daddy.

Onwards to week 9

Dear little one,

How are you today? Hope that you are getting on well inside me. Mummy is reaching the peak of morning sickness... from nausea to puking to dizziness. This morning sickness really distracted me from my work.. and I had no choice but to tell my supervisor about the little you, just in case they wondering how come I have been taking so many day offs and sick leaves. Of course, he said he will keep it to himself until we are ready. He's really a nice supervisor. Mummy is lucky.

Daddy's been great to mummy too. I feel like a queen. LOL. Daddy always do what mummy told him to do now. He is so sweet. We are all getting ready to meet you next week!

Also, I had a hair cut yesterday! So short! LOL. I was surprised myself for readily snapping off the long hair that I kept for some time. Daddy likes mummy's new hair cut. Refreshing look. ;) But somehow, I felt like an auntie. haha.

Today is National Day! Thus mummy got a day to rest from work. Need to treasure it. :) Mummy's going off to rest now.

I love you my little one. See you next wednesday!

6 weeks 6 days

Dear pea, opps, probably I shall call you blueberry now.

Thank you for letting me see and hear your heartbeat on mummy's birthday. This is the best bday gift that I ever received. Daddy is overjoyed! It is so amazing to see you growing inside me. That kind of feeling is just so indescribable.

Little berry, please grow well and grow strong. We love you.

Mummy & Daddy

Miracle

It is a taboo to say this out before everything's confirm.. But I guess I dont have to be responsible to anybody since this is my blog.. so here I am, with a 1cm sac growing inside me. :)

This time round, I had no symptoms at all. Even my 6th sense failed. (You can see from my previous post).. I can say, this is like a miracle to me and I really treasure it. I took cab to my new office everyday, since walking for 20min up slope is slightly risky for someone who has a history of MC. I do everything in a careful manner and I watched what I put inside my mouth. No more cuppacino and latte... and teh!

I took a HCG test this afternoon and another one this Sat, just to confirm the pregnancy will be a healthy, growing one.. and then.. I will be meeting my little one on my Birthday!! This is to see if it is growing well, and has a healthy heartbeat. :) I'm so looking forward to that moment and it will be the best birthday gift ever.

Daddy's happy as well when we first saw you forming that little sac. We missed you. Thank you little pea for coming back to me. The nurse asked me if this is the 2nd pregnancy, though I replied "Yes", deep down in me I said no... because you are just returning back to me silently, and much more stronger. :)

I love you little one. I always do.

DPO10

Been dedicatedly measuring my BBT (and I always did). Right now, I'm in my DPO10. I think I didnt stirke this month again. :( So far, there's no symptoms at all. I can still remember that the other time when I was pregnant, I felt tiredness, sore boobs, constipation etc. Just too bad that it didnt gone well. Now, nothing, nothing at all. I kept reading the forum saying, no AF still have hope.. but that is the little string of hope which we grasped on so tightly.. coz we are all desperate. We dont want to be disappointed. But that's the cold.hard.truth. You understand your body well and women's sixth sense is accurate. You will know IF you are preg or not, especially for obsessive people like me.

It's quite disappointing actually. My hubby is a frequent traveller and he always miss the important O day. The last cycle and this current cycle is the only time when he was in at the right time, and yet, no good news.

CD16 - OPK positive

I had started testing OPKs from CD11... but all either showed nothing or very faint lines. This morning I woke up and my BBT raised to 36.52dC. I was worrying back in my mind.. have I missed the O? Why I didnt BD yesterday night? Why did the both of us get so engrossed in the new iphone/ipad game? Is game more impt? I was actually telling myself off over and over again in my mind.

So I came to the office and decided to hold my bladder for as long as I can, and then see if I have the time to test later on. (I was so afraid of getting negative). Then I went for my lunch and told my colleagues about it and they told me to go ahead and test, preferably twice a day. I didnt have the habit of testing twice a day.. because 1) I'm lazy, and 2) I think I am wasting it if it was a negative. So my colleagues told me off by saying "this kind of things cannot save one" and thus I went to test it immediately after lunch. Yes, I kept spares in my bag. :)


So tadah~~~ Thanks to my colleagues that I went to test it. It showed a positive! I'm so excited that I went to tell the both of them my results... and then to text my dear to get ready for tonight. LOLed. This is the first time I captured my LH surge. :)

Also right now, I'm sipping my first packet of the instant red dates and longan tea.. in the hope to keep my womb warm. LOL. Probably the real stuff is better.. but i'm really lazy to start boiling and bringing to work everyday.. so to make myself feel better, instant packet is the best solution. :)

CD8

Yoohoo~~ I'm on CD8 right now. Am patiently waiting for the flower blooming day a.k.a | | to be shown on OPKs. Been testing OPKs since last cycle.. but didnt seem to be able to capture my LH surge. :( Anyway, not to worry, I had decided to test twice a day (if i'm not lazy) from tmr onwards! Hope my 20 pcs of OPK can last til then... I'm sure they will!

I'm so motivated by the sisters out there in the SMH forum. LOL. They are all so hardworking! I'm happy for those whose hard work paid off, and I am looking forward to be one of them, and I'm sure I will. :) Shall try to join them in the Mar 2013 thread.

Meanwhile, I'm asking my dear to take the vitality pills to boost his army. wahaha. Must cover all base!

CD3

"TTC journey is tough. Go ahead and try to start a family once you get married" I still remember this sentence from a friend that called me just before my Chinese customary from Australia. She was right.

At that point of time, I was still "young" and i thought that as long as I'm healthy n having regular menses, I don't see the need to rush. I need to have 2 years of couple time before having a baby. I want to have a change in career. I want to travel. But I was wrong.

She advised me from her own experience. I saw her TTC journey. From trying naturally, to taking meds, to IUI and to IVF. She failed numerous time but she never gave up. She almost. But she didnt. Her emotions went on a rollercoaster ride. She faced 2 miscarriages. But now, everything paid off. She was brave. She was my motivation. Right now, she has succeeded. She's due soon this year. I am very happy for her. A woman will brave through all storms and take on all obstacles (including sacrifices) for her little one.

I want to be that woman. :)

AF reporting

Just as I was keeping my hopes high, with Fertility Friend showing me that I was DPO16.. and temp was 37dC yesterday.. my hopes were crushed with my temperature dropped to 36.5dC this morning - That means AF reporting. Sadz. I was hoping my thermometer was giving me false readings.. and I was thinking to myself that my temperature will be high again tmr... but but but... spotting begins this afternoon. Sigh.

Guess I have to try again next cycle.

Conceiving another you

Dear little pea,

I did not forget you. Not once. I decided to post you an entry because I was encouraged by fellow mummies who are trying to conceive their little ones too. All of them have different life stories. They gave me the courage to let this blog become public. Yes. I used to set the settings to private-where only your mummy n daddy are able to see. I was hiding my real emotions. I dont want to let more people know about losing you. Now I'm not afraid. I want to let others know how I go about conceiving another you. :) From now on, I will post happier entries and let you feel happier when you are returning. We welcome you with open arms.

Love,
Mummy.

Decision.

Dear little pea, how are you now? It has been 36 days since you left me. I still miss you. You know what, mummy's colleague little bean left her too... Just shortly after u left. It was a very sad moment. She reminded u to me once again. The pain n sadness, it's not easy.

She told me she felt uncomfortable working in the lab now. Coz she found a lot of chemicals that have the potential to make pregnant mums lost their beanies or cause deformities or even infertility. I am now so afraid. I was wondering if it is the nature of my job that caused u to leave me, or it's simply my own weak body.

My colleague wanted to quit her job. She wants to eliminate this potential cause. She had influenced me. I felt that responsibility too. I cannot afford nor bare to face having another miscarriage. I am in a dilemma.

Yesterday, I sat quietly and thought to myself. If I changed job, I have to wait after 3 months before I can get preg again. I do not wish to wait. I want to have you back as soon as I can. So I made my decision. I will try again. I will give myself another chance - In this lab environment. I will be extremely careful when handling potential hazards. I have to brace for whatever it may come. It may sound easy but it's not. It is my desire to see you that gave me the courage. I hope my decision is the correct one. I have to put down in words so next time when I'm lost, I can simply refer back here and find myself again.

Dear little pea, please give both of us a chance. I love you and I miss you.

:)

Goodbye

Dear little pea, thank you for once being there in me. I felt your presence and I was truly happy. You make me eat healthier during lunch breaks and i stopped snacking junk food in between meals. You also made me decided to keep fit and stop being lazy. Now that you are not strong, you choose to leave me. I know and I can understand. It is part and parcel of my life. You were a gift to me. You taught me a lesson and you were free to go. Thank you for not causing much pain to me. You are a gentle little one. I love you. I will grieve for you for a few days, and then I will be strong and continue walking down this path. I will not give up, coz I know that you will be back to me sooner or later.

Downs and downs

I'm so worried right now. Spotting had turned into bleeding this morning. I was shocked when I see my pantyliner half soaked in blood. I called the gynae immediately. The nurse said she will consult the doctor and return my call for advice. It's been 45mins. I received no call. I called again to ask... but only to ask me to wait further.

I am so tired. I have been holding back and staying strong. I am on the verge of breaking down. Waiting and guessing is draining me...

Supposedly 6 weeks and 2 days

I had stomach cramp yesterday morning. I know it's stomach and not tummy. I took 2 hours leave in the morning (to avoid going out in heavy rain as well) rested and had light breakfast. I was feeling fine when I head off to work.

Just as I went to the toilet after lunch, I was shocked to see my panty with blood spots. I wipe and found more. I was worried. I told ZX and YT and dear immediately. ZX and YT were the only ones who can give me advice. In the end, we decided to go walk in to see my Gynae at NUH, coz I was worried.

I waited for more than 2 hours to let her finish off her appts. She did a V scan and said that she couldnt find the sac. I was worried and anxious. Why is this so? She gave me a few possibilities.. like it is still early, or hope it is not ectopic or probably there is something formed, but not developed. My heart dropped. I couldnt think properly.

I took a HCG blood test and will be going back again to take another blood test. If I am indeed preg, my HCG should doubled in 48hrs time. This 2 days wait will be a torture for me. I was not given any medications. I was so worried and sad. I thought of all possibilities towards the negative side.

*SNAP*

I had forgotten that dear was with me all along. He stood by me, accompanying me, footing the bill etc. He was encouraging me, trying to make me laugh and talked to me, give me hugs. He was supportive (but i gave him the black face). He was worried as well, but he chose to suppress it coz someone need to have a clear mind. If not for him, I think I will break down. Thank you my love.

I also want to thank my friends, who gave me advices. Those were much needed too.

So dear little pea, if you are in mummy's tummy, do stay strong and healthy ok? Just want to let you know that today is mummy and daddy's ROM wedding 2nd anniversary. :)

First Appt Date

My first appt date was initially scheduled on 8th March, after the nurse calculated the number of weeks into pregnancy. However, dear will be away in Japan for Biz trip... I was thinking that I can go alone because I was anxious to see my little one... But after reconsidering, I decided to change the appt date to 12th Mar, after dear comes back from his trip. He is also anxious to see our little one too. :)

The First Post

Hm.. how should I start this? Probably right from the beginning when I decided to put my heart into making baby process. I heeded YT's suggestion, downloaded the fertilityfriend.com iphone app, and then start recording my basal temperature at every morning. It was a tedious process. To make the readings more accurate, I need to be awake everyday at the same time, even on weekends, when I don't have to work. It was not easy, but I did it anyway. Recorded my temperature every day, recorded the days we did etc.. This was my first chart and it was around chinese new year.. so I am still not sure when was my fertile window.. so randomly we just did it when we were in Penang. This is my chart.

So I keep monitoring and monitoring in hope to see my trend and then I will be ready when I start recording my 2nd cycle. Even when there's a drop in temperature at the later part of my cycle, I didnt treat it as anything special (later I found out that dip in temperature was the day when the fertilized egg embeds into the uterus lining). Then just a few days later, I had spotting.. and I thought that my menses came. I was disappointed, but still hopeful for the next cycle.

Never did I expect, the spotting was only for a day... and subsequently, my basal temperature was high throughout.. at that particular moment, I suspected that I was pregnant, according to what I read about the triphasic basal temperature chart. I took cheap pregnancy test kit 2 days before my expected menses date, but was negative.. I was disappointed.. then I missed my expected menses date.. tested again and was negative. I was worried. I strongly believed that I was pregnant.. but why doesnt it shows up in the tests? I guess I was too anxious... 

Last resort, I went to buy clearblue test kits. Tested 2 days later. Slight positive! Was still unsure about it initially... but deep down inside us, we were very happy.

I confirmed again by a 2nd clearblue test yesterday morning and the positive was clear. Precise. I am pregnant! Shared the joy with my family member later in the afternoon.. and my close colleagues. So to play safe, my US conference trip in March will be cancelled. Nice Dr M not only understands me, and he said that the company can bear the cancellation charges. He is so nice!!!