CD16 - OPK positive

I had started testing OPKs from CD11... but all either showed nothing or very faint lines. This morning I woke up and my BBT raised to 36.52dC. I was worrying back in my mind.. have I missed the O? Why I didnt BD yesterday night? Why did the both of us get so engrossed in the new iphone/ipad game? Is game more impt? I was actually telling myself off over and over again in my mind.

So I came to the office and decided to hold my bladder for as long as I can, and then see if I have the time to test later on. (I was so afraid of getting negative). Then I went for my lunch and told my colleagues about it and they told me to go ahead and test, preferably twice a day. I didnt have the habit of testing twice a day.. because 1) I'm lazy, and 2) I think I am wasting it if it was a negative. So my colleagues told me off by saying "this kind of things cannot save one" and thus I went to test it immediately after lunch. Yes, I kept spares in my bag. :)


So tadah~~~ Thanks to my colleagues that I went to test it. It showed a positive! I'm so excited that I went to tell the both of them my results... and then to text my dear to get ready for tonight. LOLed. This is the first time I captured my LH surge. :)

Also right now, I'm sipping my first packet of the instant red dates and longan tea.. in the hope to keep my womb warm. LOL. Probably the real stuff is better.. but i'm really lazy to start boiling and bringing to work everyday.. so to make myself feel better, instant packet is the best solution. :)

CD8

Yoohoo~~ I'm on CD8 right now. Am patiently waiting for the flower blooming day a.k.a | | to be shown on OPKs. Been testing OPKs since last cycle.. but didnt seem to be able to capture my LH surge. :( Anyway, not to worry, I had decided to test twice a day (if i'm not lazy) from tmr onwards! Hope my 20 pcs of OPK can last til then... I'm sure they will!

I'm so motivated by the sisters out there in the SMH forum. LOL. They are all so hardworking! I'm happy for those whose hard work paid off, and I am looking forward to be one of them, and I'm sure I will. :) Shall try to join them in the Mar 2013 thread.

Meanwhile, I'm asking my dear to take the vitality pills to boost his army. wahaha. Must cover all base!

CD3

"TTC journey is tough. Go ahead and try to start a family once you get married" I still remember this sentence from a friend that called me just before my Chinese customary from Australia. She was right.

At that point of time, I was still "young" and i thought that as long as I'm healthy n having regular menses, I don't see the need to rush. I need to have 2 years of couple time before having a baby. I want to have a change in career. I want to travel. But I was wrong.

She advised me from her own experience. I saw her TTC journey. From trying naturally, to taking meds, to IUI and to IVF. She failed numerous time but she never gave up. She almost. But she didnt. Her emotions went on a rollercoaster ride. She faced 2 miscarriages. But now, everything paid off. She was brave. She was my motivation. Right now, she has succeeded. She's due soon this year. I am very happy for her. A woman will brave through all storms and take on all obstacles (including sacrifices) for her little one.

I want to be that woman. :)

AF reporting

Just as I was keeping my hopes high, with Fertility Friend showing me that I was DPO16.. and temp was 37dC yesterday.. my hopes were crushed with my temperature dropped to 36.5dC this morning - That means AF reporting. Sadz. I was hoping my thermometer was giving me false readings.. and I was thinking to myself that my temperature will be high again tmr... but but but... spotting begins this afternoon. Sigh.

Guess I have to try again next cycle.

Conceiving another you

Dear little pea,

I did not forget you. Not once. I decided to post you an entry because I was encouraged by fellow mummies who are trying to conceive their little ones too. All of them have different life stories. They gave me the courage to let this blog become public. Yes. I used to set the settings to private-where only your mummy n daddy are able to see. I was hiding my real emotions. I dont want to let more people know about losing you. Now I'm not afraid. I want to let others know how I go about conceiving another you. :) From now on, I will post happier entries and let you feel happier when you are returning. We welcome you with open arms.

Love,
Mummy.