Back again

I'm charging my phone right now and thus instead of dayre-ing, I think I'll blog.

Today is week 37 for me. I'm waiting for the arrival of my little princess. She's been very active in my tummy, day and night. She assures me she's doing well inside me.

How time flies. I took a total of about 4 weeks of hospitalization leave to rest at home. I was feeling guilty about work. But nothing beats to having a healthy baby.

I was told that i have borderline low amniotic fluid at week 32, and baby was still small - 1.5kg. From then gynae told me to rest at home to prevent amniotic leakage, as well as having high protein diet to boost the weight of baby. Just in case when the amnio fluid gets very low, I will need to be induced and baby will need to be at least 2kg to avoid staying in the NICU - which cost a lot.

Then I started on the journey of drinking mother's milk, 2 eggs everyday, fish and meat every single meal. I put on weight and more stretchmarks appeared... all in the hope that baby gains weight. So at week 35, she was measuring about 2.2kg! Good! My efforts paid off!

Went back to work on week 35 to handover all the jobs on hand as well as teaching newcomer on some assays that she needs to know for my project, and then here I am, back at home to rest using more hospital leave. I do hope that I dont get any issues with the complications of hospital leave and maternity leave.

Anyway, leaving those boring details aside, I'm going to see my gynae again tmr! Hope that all is well, and also I hope that princess can come a little sooner coz my v area and lower backache is really killing me and testing my patience. HOwever, thinking of confinement in such crazy weather also turns me off. But better now than later coz the haze prediction is not here yet!

The neglected blog

Our boy has turned 1! Ever since I used Dayre to blog, I seldom blog here anymore. So right now with a little mood n time, I'll just update a little here. 

Kai had his bday celebration at Kovan melody, my SIL's condo function room. Small n cosy, we only invited immediate family members. 

We were really busy decorating the place and thus not much photos were taken. As pictures say a thousand words, let me post up more pics. 

Our bundle of joys

Dear little pea,

How are you? Little Kai has been growing well. And I think thanks to your blessing, he will have his little sibling too. Thank you for becoming our little guardian angel. You are always there when we needed you. 

Love, 

Daddy and mummy.

Going 9 months~

As per the title mentioned, Kai is going to be 9 months old~! So exciting! He can crawl, babbles and now pull himself up and stands for a long time! I'm so proud of him. He's such a cutie pie! I just love this picture of him playing saliva and making that pouting lips. haha

6 months old

6 months already! I felt I aged 10 years due to the lack of sleep. Being parents have a lot to sacrifice. Gone are the days when we can have a calm n un-rush meals, gone are the days when we can watch all good movies showing on screen etc. We do have complains.. But when we see our little one growing up day by day, everything is worth it. 

6 months! He hit his crawling milestone. Fast motor skills eh. We are just starting him on solids and hope he can pick up eating skills fast! A lot of my friends' baby had already started. Lol. Lazy mum. 

Taking a little time day by day

I have no time to myself after work. Probably only on weekends. I used to complain how I miss those me times and couple times before I had Kai, right now those thoughts were gone. He has slowly become part of my life that I can't do without. I guess for me having those thoughts back then its when becoming a new mummy is stressful n overwhelming. I'm glad that all those thoughts were far away right now.

Frankly speaking, I love Kai more right now after I knew about his heart condition. Though not life threatening, no one can give us a guarantee. I treasure everyday, every smile I have with him.. not to forget, showering him with lots of love and concern. 

My heart n mind was near to a crumble when last Monday Kai fell ill. Flu infection may be common for all babies... But my baby is special. He may be more at a risk compared to others. I was doubly worried. Dear is away on biz trip and I had to be the decision maker. Like, when to bring him to the clinic, when to go a&e, whether to admit him for observation etc. seeing his heart rate doubled and hearing him scream n cry that very moment I put him down n nurses ushered me out for them to have mucus suction, my heart felt like thousands of needles. I'm sure my mother in law felt it too. 

I decided to bring him back home coz i want him to rest more at a familiar environment. My mil and I carried him to sleep that day coz he doesn't want to be put down. I guess it's the combination of having block nose and can't breathe well upon lying down, or he was traumatized by the mucus suction procedures and doesn't want to let us go. Even when I'm typing this post and recall those events, my heart aches and tears welled up.

I have to be strong for my little one, especially when dear is not around. I was so desperate that I tried all means to make him feel better.. Texting Suz for sending Kai reiki on top of mine, trying to suck out mucus using my mouth directly to his nose when the gadgets I have at home were useless. After all those crazy days, lack of sleep, anxiety, endless worries, I'm glad that Kai is now better.

A follow up on thurs at nuh said he was cleared of lungs fluid retention, and his heart is stable. We were so glad. Though his cough or block nose may linger for another week or so. Dear is coming home today and I'm so looking forward.

My cute little baby

My baby is 16 weeks old ytd! My cute little brave boy. This journey of him and mine haven't really been smooth sailing since birth. Like post natal blues I got linking to mother in law issues, jaundice level that doesn't went down etc, and now a hole in his heart. 

While the doctor say its not serious and doesn't pose a risk to him right now, he will need to have a surgery in 3-4 years time. 13mm for a 4 month old baby is quite significant. How big is a baby's heart now? Well it's easy to say not to worry coz my brave little boy has been growing up well.. But now with this diagnosis and the facts in front of me, who won't, as a parent, be worried for her cute little one?

Dear baby, please be well. Let's have faith. Little pea in heaven, please bless this little brother of yours. I love you all.